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Feeling Forever

Feeling Forever

by Albany Walker 2023 273 pages
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Plot Summary

Fractured Trust, Fragile Hearts

A family confrontation shatters peace

Waylynn's world is upended when her mother's suspicion and overbearing concern threaten her newfound independence. The arrival of her mother, Cordelia, and the subsequent intervention of Dr. Tobin, Waylynn's psychologist, expose the deep rift between mother and daughter. Cordelia's inability to trust Waylynn's judgment, especially regarding her relationships with Memphis, Oswald, and Bates, creates a tense standoff. The boys rally around Waylynn, determined to protect her from being institutionalized again. The emotional toll is heavy, as Waylynn is forced to defend her autonomy and mental health, while her mother's actions leave her feeling betrayed and fragile. The chapter sets the stage for a battle between parental control and the right to self-determination, with love and loyalty tested on all sides.

Secrets Unveiled, Lines Crossed

Private struggles come into the open

After the confrontation, Waylynn's private battles with mental health and the voices she hears are brought into the light. The boys learn about her history with anxiety, medication, and the persistent voices that have haunted her since childhood. The revelation that the voices are, in fact, theirs—Memphis, Oswald, and Bates—shocks everyone, especially Memphis, who grapples with guilt over his unintentional role in her suffering. The group's dynamic shifts as vulnerability replaces secrecy, and the boys must decide whether to embrace or retreat from the complexities of Waylynn's reality. The emotional intensity is palpable, as love is tested by the weight of truth, and the bonds between them are either strengthened or threatened by newfound honesty.

Voices in the Silence

Supernatural bonds defy explanation

Waylynn's confession that she has always heard the boys' voices blurs the line between mental illness and something inexplicably supernatural. The group debates whether her experiences are psychic connections or symptoms, but the emotional resonance is undeniable. Memphis, Oswald, and Bates each process the revelation differently—Memphis with guilt, Oswald with protectiveness, and Bates with curiosity and acceptance. The voices become a symbol of their fated connection, challenging the notion of normalcy and inviting the possibility that love can transcend logic. The chapter explores the pain and beauty of being different, and the courage it takes to be seen and loved for one's whole self.

Love's Unconventional Shape

A relationship beyond convention forms

As the truth settles, the group embraces an unconventional polyamorous relationship. Waylynn's love for all three boys is reciprocated, and together they navigate the complexities of jealousy, loyalty, and desire. Their connection is both physical and emotional, with each boy offering her something unique—Memphis's strength, Oswald's lightness, and Bates's steadiness. The outside world's expectations and judgments loom, but within their circle, they find acceptance and belonging. The chapter is a celebration of chosen family and the freedom to define love on one's own terms, even as it invites scrutiny and risk.

Parental Shadows, Inner Light

Family visits threaten hard-won peace

The arrival of Waylynn's parents, and the unexpected presence of Easton, an old family friend, cast a shadow over the group's happiness. Cordelia's attempts to control and manipulate, including bringing Easton as a potential suitor, reignite Waylynn's insecurities and fears of abandonment. The boys are forced to hide their true relationship, and the stress of secrecy strains everyone. Yet, through the ordeal, Waylynn discovers a new inner strength, refusing to let her mother's expectations dictate her choices. The chapter explores the tension between familial obligation and self-actualization, as Waylynn learns to prioritize her own happiness.

Confessions and Connections

Intimacy deepens through shared vulnerability

With the threat of exposure looming, the group draws closer, finding solace in each other's arms. Intimate moments—both physical and emotional—become acts of defiance and healing. Waylynn's willingness to be vulnerable, to share her fears and desires, is met with unwavering support from Memphis, Oswald, and Bates. Together, they create a safe space where love is unconditional and acceptance is absolute. The chapter is a testament to the power of connection, showing that true intimacy is built on trust, honesty, and the courage to be seen.

Boundaries Broken, Truths Revealed

Secrets unravel, and loyalties are tested

The fragile peace is shattered when Easton invades Waylynn's privacy, leading to a violent confrontation. Bates's protective instincts result in a physical altercation, and the truth about the group's relationship is exposed to Waylynn's parents. The fallout is immediate and severe—accusations fly, and old wounds are reopened. Waylynn is forced to choose between her family's approval and her own truth. The chapter is a crucible, burning away pretense and forcing everyone to confront the consequences of honesty and the cost of living authentically.

The Weight of Normalcy

Societal expectations clash with personal truth

In the aftermath, Waylynn grapples with the pressure to conform to societal norms. Her mother's insistence on "normal" relationships and behavior is juxtaposed against the genuine love and acceptance she finds with the boys. The struggle to reconcile external expectations with internal reality is painful, but ultimately, Waylynn chooses authenticity over approval. The chapter explores the universal desire to belong, and the courage it takes to reject a life that doesn't fit, even when it means standing alone.

Family Intrusions, Chosen Bonds

Family drama threatens chosen family

Thanksgiving becomes a battleground as both biological and chosen families collide. Cordelia's manipulations escalate, culminating in a crisis that sees Waylynn's autonomy stripped away. The boys are powerless as Waylynn is taken from them under the guise of concern for her mental health. The pain of separation is acute, but the ordeal galvanizes the group's commitment to each other. The chapter is a meditation on the meaning of family—blood versus choice—and the lengths we go to protect those we love.

The Cost of Protection

Sacrifice and consequences for love

Bates's attempt to protect Waylynn results in his arrest, while Waylynn is involuntarily committed. The group is left reeling, desperate for answers and powerless to intervene. The emotional toll is immense, as guilt, fear, and helplessness threaten to overwhelm them. Yet, even in the darkest moments, their love endures, providing a lifeline of hope. The chapter examines the price of protection, and the reality that sometimes, love means risking everything.

Betrayal and Breakdown

Trust is shattered by those meant to protect

Waylynn's sense of betrayal is profound as she realizes her parents, especially her mother, have prioritized control over her well-being. The experience of being institutionalized against her will is dehumanizing and traumatic, but it also becomes a crucible for self-discovery. The boys, meanwhile, are forced to confront their own limitations and the reality that love cannot always shield from harm. The chapter is a raw exploration of trust, betrayal, and the resilience required to survive both.

Lost and Taken

Separation and uncertainty breed despair

Isolated and alone, Waylynn endures the indignities of involuntary commitment, while the boys frantically search for her. The sense of loss is palpable, as each character is forced to confront the possibility of a future without the others. The pain of separation is matched only by the determination to reunite. The chapter is a study in longing, hope, and the unbreakable bonds that tether hearts across any distance.

The Fight for Freedom

Agency reclaimed through courage and advocacy

With the help of her doctors and her own tenacity, Waylynn fights for her release. She refuses to be defined by her mother's fears or society's labels, advocating for herself with clarity and strength. The boys, too, refuse to give up, leveraging every resource to bring her home. The chapter is a triumphant assertion of agency, as Waylynn reclaims her life and her right to love on her own terms.

Healing in the Aftermath

Reunion brings both relief and new challenges

Waylynn's return is bittersweet—joy is tempered by the scars of trauma and the knowledge that safety is never guaranteed. The group must navigate the lingering effects of betrayal, rebuilding trust and redefining boundaries. Healing is slow and nonlinear, but together, they find solace in each other. The chapter is a testament to the power of love to mend even the deepest wounds, and the importance of patience and compassion in the process of recovery.

Drawing New Boundaries

Legal and emotional lines are set

Determined to prevent future harm, Waylynn establishes legal boundaries with her parents, including a no-contact order and mandatory counseling. The group supports her unconditionally, even as the pain of estrangement lingers. The experience forces everyone to reevaluate the meaning of family, loyalty, and self-protection. The chapter is about drawing lines—not just to keep others out, but to keep oneself safe and whole.

Reclaiming Home, Rebuilding Trust

A new sense of safety and belonging emerges

With her parents gone, Waylynn and the boys reclaim their home, both literally and emotionally. The process of rebuilding is slow, but each small act of care—shared meals, laughter, and quiet moments—restores a sense of safety and belonging. The group's love, once a source of risk, becomes a foundation for healing and growth. The chapter is a celebration of resilience, and the quiet power of everyday acts of love.

Seasons of Growth

Time passes, and love deepens

Months go by, and the group settles into a new rhythm. Waylynn continues therapy, and the boys pursue their own goals, but their bond remains the center of their lives. Challenges persist—family, societal judgment, and the ghosts of the past—but together, they face each one with courage and grace. The chapter is a meditation on growth, showing that healing is a journey, not a destination, and that love, when nurtured, only grows stronger with time.

Love, Unapologetically Ours

A future claimed without shame or fear

In the end, Waylynn and her boys choose each other, unapologetically and without reservation. Their love, once a source of secrecy and shame, becomes a badge of honor—a testament to the power of authenticity and the right to define one's own happiness. The story closes on a note of hope, as the group looks to the future with confidence, knowing that whatever challenges come, they will face them together. The final chapter is a declaration: love, in all its forms, is worth fighting for.

Characters

Waylynn Graff

Haunted, resilient, and fiercely loving

Waylynn is the emotional heart of the story—a young woman whose life has been shaped by trauma, mental health struggles, and the persistent voices she hears. Her journey is one of self-discovery and reclamation, as she learns to trust her own perceptions and desires in the face of overwhelming external pressure. Waylynn's relationships with Memphis, Oswald, and Bates are both a source of healing and a crucible for growth, challenging her to embrace vulnerability and authenticity. Her dynamic with her mother is fraught, marked by love, disappointment, and the pain of unmet expectations. Over the course of the story, Waylynn transforms from a girl defined by others' fears to a woman who claims her own happiness, drawing strength from her chosen family and her own indomitable spirit.

Memphis Gravlin

Protective, intense, and deeply loyal

Memphis is the anchor of the group, a man whose tough exterior hides a well of vulnerability and pain. Scarred by a traumatic childhood and the loss of his parents, Memphis is fiercely protective of those he loves, especially his brother Oswald and Waylynn. His relationship with Waylynn is marked by both dominance and tenderness, as he struggles to balance his need for control with his desire to see her flourish. Memphis's journey is one of learning to trust—not just others, but himself—and to accept that love sometimes means letting go. His loyalty is unwavering, and his willingness to fight for those he loves is both his greatest strength and his deepest vulnerability.

Oswald Gravlin

Playful, passionate, and steadfast

Oswald, Memphis's younger brother, brings lightness and humor to the group, but beneath his playful exterior lies a deep well of devotion and sensitivity. Oswald's relationship with Waylynn is characterized by warmth, physical affection, and a willingness to embrace the unconventional. He is the first to accept the group's polyamorous dynamic, and his openness helps pave the way for deeper intimacy. Oswald's loyalty to his brother and to Waylynn is absolute, and he is often the glue that holds the group together during times of crisis. His journey is one of learning to balance his own needs with those of the people he loves, and to find strength in vulnerability.

Bates Fletcher

Steady, introspective, and quietly passionate

Bates is the group's rock—a calming presence whose steadiness provides a counterbalance to Memphis's intensity and Oswald's exuberance. His relationship with Waylynn is built on mutual respect, deep conversation, and a shared love of music. Bates is the most introspective of the group, often serving as the voice of reason and empathy. His own family history is less traumatic, but he is no stranger to pain, and his willingness to stand up for Waylynn—even at great personal cost—demonstrates his quiet courage. Bates's journey is one of embracing his own desires and learning to claim his place in the group's dynamic.

Cordelia Graff

Controlling, fearful, and ultimately tragic

Cordelia is both antagonist and victim—a mother whose love is warped by fear and a desperate need for control. Her inability to accept Waylynn's differences, and her willingness to betray her daughter in the name of protection, make her a deeply flawed character. Yet, beneath her manipulations lies a woman haunted by loss and guilt, unable to move past the death of her son. Cordelia's journey is one of reckoning, as she is forced to confront the consequences of her actions and the reality that love cannot be forced or controlled. Her relationship with Waylynn is a cautionary tale about the dangers of loving through fear rather than acceptance.

James Graff

Well-meaning, passive, and conflicted

James, Waylynn's father, is a quieter presence—often caught between his wife's demands and his daughter's needs. He is well-intentioned but struggles to assert himself, leading to complicity in Cordelia's more harmful actions. James's love for Waylynn is genuine, but his inability to stand up to Cordelia results in missed opportunities for connection and protection. His journey is one of gradual awakening, as he comes to recognize the importance of supporting Waylynn's autonomy and happiness.

Easton Dumas

Manipulative, opportunistic, and ultimately exposed

Easton is introduced as a family friend but quickly reveals himself as an antagonist, colluding with Cordelia's attempts to undermine Waylynn's relationships. His actions—invading Waylynn's privacy and attempting to sow discord—are driven by self-interest and a willingness to exploit others' vulnerabilities. Easton's presence serves as a catalyst for the story's central conflicts, forcing the group to confront external threats and reaffirm their loyalty to each other.

Dr. Tobin

Calm, ethical, and quietly supportive

Dr. Tobin is Waylynn's psychologist, a stabilizing force who advocates for her autonomy and well-being. His calm demeanor and willingness to listen make him a trusted confidant, and his intervention is instrumental in securing Waylynn's release from involuntary commitment. Dr. Tobin represents the importance of ethical care and the power of professional support in navigating mental health challenges.

Michele Fletcher

Nurturing, pragmatic, and open-minded

Michele, Bates's mother, provides a model of acceptance and unconditional love. Her willingness to embrace Waylynn and the boys, even as she grapples with the unconventional nature of their relationship, offers a stark contrast to Cordelia's rigidity. Michele's presence is a reminder that family can be chosen, and that love is most powerful when it is given freely and without judgment.

Jerry Fletcher

Supportive, humorous, and grounded

Jerry, Bates's stepfather, brings humor and stability to the group. His easy acceptance of Waylynn and the boys, and his ability to defuse tension with a joke or a kind word, make him an invaluable member of the extended family. Jerry's groundedness and lack of pretense provide a safe haven for the group, reinforcing the story's central message that home is where love resides.

Plot Devices

Polyamory as Emotional Catalyst

Love's unconventional form challenges norms

The story's central plot device is the polyamorous relationship between Waylynn, Memphis, Oswald, and Bates. This dynamic is not just a backdrop but a catalyst for character growth, conflict, and healing. The relationship forces each character to confront their own insecurities, desires, and boundaries, while also challenging societal expectations. The polyamorous structure allows for a nuanced exploration of intimacy, loyalty, and the ways in which love can be both expansive and deeply personal. It also serves as a crucible for the group's resilience, as they must navigate external judgment and internal doubts to claim their happiness.

Mental Health and Supernatural Ambiguity

Blurring lines between illness and gift

Waylynn's experiences with anxiety, medication, and the voices she hears are central to the narrative. The ambiguity—are the voices symptoms or a form of psychic connection?—creates tension and drives the plot. This device allows the story to explore themes of stigma, self-acceptance, and the power of reframing one's narrative. The supernatural undertones invite readers to question the boundaries of reality and the possibility that love can transcend logic. The voices also serve as a metaphor for the ways in which we are shaped by the people we love, and the importance of being truly seen and understood.

Family as Both Haven and Threat

Biological and chosen families in conflict

The tension between biological and chosen family is a recurring motif. Waylynn's struggle to assert her independence from her parents, and her parents' attempts to control her, create the central conflict. The boys' unwavering support offers a counterpoint, demonstrating the power of chosen family to heal and protect. The intrusion of Easton and the threat of institutionalization heighten the stakes, forcing the group to fight for their right to define family on their own terms. This device underscores the story's central message: that love, not blood, is the true foundation of belonging.

Authenticity grounds emotional stakes

The use of legal and psychological processes—therapy, involuntary commitment, mediation, and no-contact orders—adds realism and gravity to the narrative. These elements are not just plot mechanics but integral to the characters' journeys, forcing them to confront the limits of love and the necessity of self-advocacy. The story's attention to the realities of mental health care, patient rights, and the trauma of institutionalization grounds the emotional stakes and invites readers to empathize with the characters' struggles.

Narrative Structure and Multiple Perspectives

Shifting viewpoints deepen emotional resonance

The story employs a multi-perspective narrative, allowing readers to experience events through the eyes of Waylynn, Memphis, Oswald, and Bates. This structure enriches the emotional landscape, offering insight into each character's motivations, fears, and desires. The shifting viewpoints also create dramatic irony, as readers are privy to secrets and misunderstandings that the characters themselves must navigate. The result is a tapestry of interconnected stories, each contributing to the overarching narrative of love, loss, and redemption.

Analysis

Feeling Forever is a bold, emotionally charged exploration of love, mental health, and the struggle for self-determination in the face of overwhelming external pressure. At its core, the novel is a celebration of chosen family and the right to define happiness on one's own terms. Albany Walker deftly navigates the complexities of polyamory, mental illness, and familial conflict, refusing to offer easy answers or tidy resolutions. Instead, the story invites readers to sit with discomfort, to question the boundaries of normalcy, and to embrace the messiness of real love. The novel's greatest strength lies in its refusal to pathologize difference—instead, it reframes Waylynn's experiences as both challenge and gift, and her journey as one of reclamation rather than recovery. The lessons are clear: love is most powerful when it is honest, boundaries are essential for healing, and the courage to be oneself is the greatest act of all. In a world that often demands conformity, Feeling Forever is a rallying cry for authenticity, resilience, and the transformative power of unconditional love.

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4.09 out of 5
Average of 8.3K ratings from Goodreads and Amazon.

Feeling Forever receives mixed reviews averaging 4.09 stars. Many readers feel disappointed by the unresolved ending, particularly the unexplained paranormal element of why protagonist Waylynn hears voices after her childhood accident. Critics note the "mean voice" and her brother's death are never adequately addressed. Bates feels like a third wheel in the reverse harem relationship. Subplots involving Alexis and family drama lack resolution. Several reviewers describe the conclusion as rushed and abrupt, expressing frustration that it feels unfinished rather than a true happily-ever-after. However, some fans appreciate the character development and enjoyable romance despite these shortcomings.

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Albany Walker lives in Michigan where she's happily married to her high school sweetheart. She balances raising four children and managing their extracurricular activities while pursuing her passion for reading and writing. When not immersed in books, she creates her own romance novels featuring flawed, realistic characters who find their happily-ever-afters. Walker specializes in contemporary romance that explores real relationships and imperfect people. Her writing style is described by readers as engaging and easy to read, though some feel her stories could benefit from more development. She has built a following among reverse harem romance readers seeking lighter, character-driven narratives with paranormal elements.

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